Summary and Now Back In The USA

I am tired of trying to write in the past tense, and trying to catch up, so this is my concluding post for this trip. The posts are out of order, and I recommend reading "The Flight" first.

Back in the USA, I am still trying to find my feet. America seems too orderly, and distant after the chaos in India. I suspect that this is largely because in India I have an extended family that dotes upon me. They see me infrequently and when they do, I am showered with affection. That is what I miss back in the USA. Here I have to go out of my way to seek affection and attention.

Also having learned the American culture as a second culture, I am still circumspect about how I interact with people. Even when relaxed, I am still critical of how I speak and act. That leaves me distant. I am envious of those Indians, who are oblivious of what others think. They use their Indian accents profusely and don't mind breaking out their Indian food in the cafeteria. They speak in the Indian language in front of others. That of course bothers the others a lot, but not them. On the other hand, I have insight into American culture that gives me an advantage should I decide to do something meaningful -- like this standup comedy stuff.